I really don't have much time to blog, but the past few days have been too crazy not to.9:24 PM
On monday I had the "let's be friends talk." Except now a'days it's a blog/vm not so much a talk. I'm sad, not so much at the thought that I waited around for 6 months in hopes this guy would decide I'm the best thing since craisins... Nope, I'm sad because I had an ah-ha moment.
This is actually pretty sick, sick that I thought of it, and quite sad in and of itself.
I realized I am the segue to relationships for all of those I date. Get Ready Lance - you are ready to either find the woman of your dreams, or your baby momma!
Check this out --
Every guy I "date" isn't ready to be in a relationship... Then the next thing I know they are dating, marrying or pro-creating with the next vaginal being they meet.in chronological order. Do note I am still very good friends with most of the guys below (unless otherwise noted).
1995 Ryan (dated the one(before) and after me for 5+ years) - He might have dated Missy inbetween, but he's a weird example since it was just the start. But to his defense we were in a relationship.
1996/7 Beckmann (getting married to Karen in two weeks)
1999 Ricky (married Janelle)
2001 Jeremy (moved in with Amy? and lived with her for 5+ years - I don't know her name, but I know he jumped right into that one)
2002/3 John (lives with Cassie) - and I love you both to death!
2004 Jennifer -- JUST KIDDING. I was seeing if you were still paying attention. And I was a loser and didn't date anyone for a long time - I just worked 3 jobs and 80+ hrs per week.
2005 Al (went back to crazy oxy-codone girl - I didn't take the time to get to know her when she jumped into my car and locked herself in...)
Spring 2006 Cade (fell in love with the crack/coke chick)
Summer 2006 Big Fat Bear - JASON (still with the girl he cheated on me with - JESS) - yeah, I think they are bad people.
Fall 2006- Summer 2007 Ryan (is pregnant)
Winter 07 - Spring 08 - Lance, rumor has it has found a "new buddy" but it's unsubstantiated. When he gets married or has a baby next February we'll know it's true - GOOD LUCK!
I might as well put an ad in the paper stating, "Want to find your perfect mate? Date me, dump me and she will magically appear!"
I am no longer hoping to find that special someone, I'm going to start charging when I hand them off.
I'm actually very funny.
- May 10, 2008why?
- It's been a while since I last blogged. Where to even begin.
My car got keyed. It got keyed for the 2 1/2 hours it was parked on the street because I drove Tiffany's car home and forgot I re-parked my car in my neighbors space. When I remembered in the morning I quick ran out and parked mine in the street in case he came home.
$1100+ damage. Some really awesome Car guys fixed it. Car Star. Because my insurance didn't cover a rental car the dudes at Car Star actually loaned me their shop car because I said with two jobs, no family and no friends with an extra car there was NO WAY I could manage. They made some poor kid in the shop give up his car for me to use for the week.
Only problem is that on my way back a bunch of rocks hit the windshield. Yep- had to call out the windshield fix-it dudes to come and fix it. They conned me into purchasing windshield wipers - how convenient the dude forget them when he came out to fix the car. He was super nice and it was cold and windy, so I won't worry too much about the $13 that I've tried twice to get off my credit card and can't get through because the only number I have is for a nation chain of a different name.
Then I realized I lost my tags for my plates somewhere between the day I put them into my glovebox because it was raining and I had to get up early to drive it to Car Star. Good thing the DMV believed me and sent me a new one. That was a surprise.
The poor Kia-debacle is not yet finished. The windows did not work properly on the side that was painted. I called Car Star and they asked when I could bring it in. I said, "NEVER." -- I work 70-80 hours/wk. They came and picked my car up, brought it to thier shop 40 minutes away, fixed it, and brought it back.
A couple good things -
I attended a bowling-night with my ladies (former students) from Mt. Mary for their graduation get-together. It is so wonderful to see how much each of them has grown. I'm so happy to have hopefully been a postitive part of their lives.
And my biggest news yet - I'm a finalist for a full-time tenured track teaching position at UWM and am SO EXCITED! It's my dream job. I started working on my lecture for the all-day interview weeks ago, but each time I work on it I am so tired.
Finals week is next week, but so is my interview.
In between all this I have become extremely upset with a couple people I thought were my friends. One was a person I thought was an okay guy, turns out he is not. He will cheat on my friend and I will be there for her, just like I was last weekend when he chose to hang out with his sailing buddies and drink when she needed him. The reason I feel so bad about this is that I encouraged her to date this guy and he has already lied and disrepected her.
They've only been dating 3 weeks, but he already told her he loved her. Then she overheard him talking to his friends about hooking up with someone in another state in September. She confirmed he was not kidding after seeing a series of e-mails. He said, "guys say those kinds of things when they're out" - yeah right! Then he even went so far as to make fun of the fact that they were able to discuss his getting it on with another girl while she was present. SICK! But she's still with him...
Now for me. I kinda like someone, and have for the past several months. Maybe not as a life-long love, but for sure as a potential. Now it's all messed up and the person who started the turbulance between us doesn't care he upset me. He instead cares only that the guy I like is not mad at him for telling me lies. Why tell me something you know will upset me and not expect me to ask the guy I thought I was dating? Most things people do that are hurtful make no sense to me. I'm so sick of crying because other people don't care about anything but themselves.
Do they ever put themselves in the other persons shoes? If they do they are really shitty people that don't deserve my friendship, nor respect.
I need to focus on my interview, grading, and finals. I'm working three jobs tomorrow and the cat needs food.
Because of all this I will not have my phones on for the weekend, not that it matters as the one person I was hoping would call has not, and most likely will not. And it's all because someone lied to me just to get a rise. Thanks.
- Apr 17, 2008Why do I even try
When I walk aimlessly I seem to bump into good things along the way. It's only when I plan and hope for better things, and try establishing expectations that I am disappointed.
I'm waiting for that 10x return. Karma where ya at? Right now I'd settle for reciprocity.
Don't worry Milwaukee "friends" even though I do a lot of things that wouldn't be my "top" choice because I know YOU want to do them... like wasting away a beautiful day in a smoky bar… I've given up on expecting you to do the same for me. Again, erroneously "expecting" something.
Apparently expecting a reply to an invitation was too much. Honestly were you really brought up this way? Would it be different if it was a significant other, family member or "better" friend? Did I have to call you to guilt you into making up an excuse? Wouldn't it have been easier to make up a lie in an earlier reply?
Is it okay to do such things to me simply because others do them to you? If so, maybe you aren't the type of "friend" that deserves my friendship.
I guess I'm going to have to take a break and think about if it's all worth this constant disappointment. Or maybe it will be to make a break. We'll see. I can't get much lonelier than I have been the 8 years I've been living here.
And I'm not sad. In fact things are going great with my jobs, I'm getting on track with my finances and making plans for the future. It's too bad I can't tell anyone face to face because they are too busy – livin' it up. cheers!
- RemoveMar 31, 2008Fantasy Baseball
So, I’m on two leagues this year.
I’ve subscribed to MLB.TV (am currently watching the Twins) - thinking I should pick up Gomez for both my teams, but figure I probably shouldn’t have three OF’s all from the same team on days where they don’t play...
Anyway I have Matsui (the new one) on my new team. Dude is on the DL with an Anal fissure. I don’t want to know what that is, or how it was achieved. Again, I don’t really want to know.
Should I dump him?